It’s been pretty rough around here lately. Most of you know that I’ve been very sick and had to leave my job at the end of last year. These last few months have been a constant battle between spending money on supplements that may make me feel better for a day or two, or suffering because I have nowhere to go anyway. That student loan bill that still comes like clockwork each month is a kick in the gut, seeing as how that particular career seems to have gone down the drain, at least for the time being. But, I digress.
Somebody (namely, me) had a birthday last week and, as birthdays go, there are often special meals, an AMAZING gluten-free, egg-free chocolate cake made my by beloved (I may or may not have had three pieces yesterday), gifts, and the like. You know, extra expenses. If I’m going to go all-out with this blog thing, I might as well tell all, right? Being an open book makes life so much more interesting. I guess I don’t mind telling you that we goofed on our budget. Auto-draft for bills is a blessing and a curse all wrapped up in one. Praise God for overdraft coverage, anyone?
I’m fairly certain that Jason’s plan for this week was just to not eat at all, while I was frantically entering ingredients into myfridgefood.com, attempting to come up with creative meals involving ground beef, rice, half-rotten veggies, and five cans of coconut milk. I woke up this morning armed with birthday money and a bag of change that would cover our overdraft and headed to the bank. On a whim I decided to close the individual savings account they forced me to open when I first took out the mortgage and haven’t touched since. I thought it might give us a few extra dollars in the joint account.
ENTER, GOD. That savings account, that I swear I have not touched in years, had $812 in it. EIGHT HUNDRED AND TWELVE DOLLARS. They almost had to pick me up off the floor of the bank. I have a slightly vague memory of possibly putting a little tax return money in there from a previous year because I used to be so much smarter with money, but no account builds that much interest. I’m going to stick with GOD PROVIDES.
How else can I explain the fact that last month the bank told us we had gotten a month ahead on our mortgage, or that this month there is an unbelievable amount of money in an account I haven’t touched in years? Yes, I used to be much more frugal and intelligent with money. My college friends called me a “miser”, but those days are gone. This was my lesson that those days need to return! This was God’s way of teaching me that he is still with us. He is also teaching me not to squander his provision, and PAY MORE ATTENTION, ALREADY!!
“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?” – Matthew 6:26 ESV
No worries, Karina. God’s got this. It may not be in the way you expect, and you may need to pay more attention, but he’s on it. And there’s no one else you’d rather be in control. In the meantime, go have some cake!
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV