I Cry Out Through Music

Besides the fact that I rely on God for the very next breath I breathe, you need to know a few more things about me to understand this blog.  I will be discussing these things in the next few posts, as I update for your reading pleasure (I hope!)

The first thing you need to know is that music is prayer to me.  It has always been a massive part of my life.  I have been singing since I could talk.  I started playing piano when I was in second grade and it became my first love.  I picked up the guitar in college.  After college I was living with my dear friend, Mary.  I would often listen as she made up beautiful songs on the piano and one day I expressed that I would love to be able to write songs.  She said something I will never forget.  She said, “I bet if you wanted to write a song, God would let you.”  Light bulb!!  As soon as I quit trying to write songs myself and opened up to God writing HIS songs through me, the music flowed.  The music has not been there very often lately with all of the craziness that has been going on in my life (more on that later), but I know it will return when God feels I am ready to sing his songs again. In the meantime, I continue in awe of the ones he has already given me.

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Photo Credit: JND Photography

There are certain songs that simply amaze me when finished, because I know there is absolutely no way that I could have written them. This is one of those songs that just came to me when I sat down and started playing. It is during these Heaven-filled moments that God makes it very obvious to me that the song is all his. It starts out by saying I don’t know what to pray for, which is often very true for me. But God knows what I need to pray and gives me the words, or groans when the words will not come. Sometimes – quite often – it is difficult for me to express myself, and this song gives voice to that issue. It speaks of conflicting emotions and holding back something, whatever that ‘something’ may be, from God. In this storm of emotions, we cry out for calm seas and safe arms. As always, his safe arms reach out to hold us and keep us safe.  I cannot tell you how much I have needed this song in the last few years.  Stick around for the next post to find out why.

“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” – Romans 8:26 NIV

As a special treat for reading, you can listen to I Cry Out HERE.  Feel free to explore my music page if you like.

I Cry Out

“Lord, I don’t know what to pray for
My heart cannot be put into words
And sometimes it seems the tears fall so easily
And sometimes there are no tears at all
And I long for a way to tell you
But I can’t express my overflowing heart

Chorus:
So I cry out to you, let my praises be true
I’m tired of falling back into the storm
I need you to calm the seas and bring your perfect peace
As I fall into your open, loving arms

Lord, you deserve more than I ever give you
I’m ashamed at how I treat the Lord of all
And I wish my heart would always be near you
But I take it farther from you than I should
But when I let you in my joy is overwhelming
So I can’t explain what’s holding me back

Chorus

For you are the Lord of everything and my blessings overflow
I don’t deserve the gifts you bring but you’re giving even more
And I’m humbled by your unfailing love

Chorus

And I cry out to you, let my praises be true
As I fall into your open, loving arms
Oh Lord please catch me in your open, loving arms.”

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Author: Karina Baker

Hello, my dear friends! Glad to see you here. Thank you for reading about my beautiful rubble – my struggles with life, faith, and autoimmunity. Feel free to share your stories in the comments. My love and prayers to all of you!

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