"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. And God said, 'Let there be light,' and there was light." - Genesis 1:1-3 (NIV)
Sometimes life just seems so dark. The light seems to hide behind layer upon layer of pain, grief, illness, and struggle. But it is in this darkness that God so often speaks.
"The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world." - John 1:9 (NIV)
Into the darkness of this savior-less world, God sent his Light. His Son. God spoke his word into the darkness and there was light. There was finally a way for people to receive God’s forgiveness and eternity, through Jesus – the Way, the Truth, The Life. The Light.
It may sound strange but in darkness is my favorite way to come wholeheartedly into the presence of God. It seems that he makes his presence known to me more clearly without all of the distractions that come forth in the light. I know that I am only intimately seen by God in those moments so I can relax and just be me, the person he already knows so deeply.
A few weeks ago after a difficult doctor’s appointment, I pulled into and shut the garage and turned my car off but I wanted to finish listening to the song that was playing. I waited so long that the garage light and car lights went out and it was pitch black. I found myself crying out to God in the darkness. I have never felt his presence so real to me as it was in that moment. I knew that he was in the car with me, within me, holding me and wiping my tears. It’s impossible to explain the deep sense of Holy, but I so long for all of you to experience moments like that!
When I can’t sleep, sometimes I feel a longing to just be with God for awhile. Sure, I can pray in my bed, but I am often distracted by my concern that I’m not sleeping, or…ahem… somebody’s snoring. So, I get up and go to our guest room, close the door, and get on my knees before God. There’s something about that position and the darkness that pushes away the distractions and allows me to be fully real with God. Prior to my illness, it had been ages since I spent time fully engaged with God in that way. It is there in the darkness that I find peace again.
"Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in his wonderful face and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of his glory and grace."
I believe part of the reason God allows us to have times of darkness is so that his presence can be more intensely known. So that we seek him with our entire being in the midst of our suffering. When our world has grown dim behind the shadows of sorrow and pain, it is then that the Light can be more clearly seen. It is then that the shadows can be lifted and the splendor of the love of God can be revealed to our hearts. If we never experienced darkness, we would not fully understand the glory of the Light.
"This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all." - 1 John 1:5 (NIV)
My prayer is for everyone walking in darkness to experience the brilliance of God’s light. He loves each of us more than we are able to understand, but we can better understand that love and light when it shines through our darkness.
Love to you,
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