Do you ever want something so big you feel it’s too much? Maybe you feel a catch in your words before they spill out of your mouth. You think, “I don’t want to be disappointed again so I just won’t ask,” or, “That would be too big of a miracle. Maybe I should ask for something smaller, more reasonable.” Instead of asking for the desires of your heart, you ask for little things, things you can believe God might possibly give you. See what I did there? Could it be that it’s not about what God can or will give us, but about our belief in His ability, love, and care for us? That’s not to say His answer to every prayer will be “Yes,” but I do believe we often stuff our prayers to fit our own logic when, just in case you haven’t noticed, God doesn’t always fit within our human logic. I’m so thankful for that. We contend for our lesser prayers after stifling the miraculous ones, all the while the God of too much repeats, “You don’t have because you don’t ask” (James 4:2).
Life often feels too much. Perhaps that’s why we hesitate to pray the miracle prayers… because we’ve prayed them one too many times with no answer. It doesn’t feel like we’ll survive another “No” or, perhaps even worse, more silence. Oh, my friends, I have been in that place more often than not. What I want to ask all of us is this: Does the numbness or bitterness of hopeless acceptance really take less of a toll on our hearts than the answer of “No” or “Wait”? When we numb ourselves to fend off the pain of God’s “No,” might we be missing His extravagant “Yes”? This life holds so much heartbreak. My human heart feels it’s too much. But I also know the God of too much, the God who sent His Son to give us a life of abundance (John 10:10). I don’t think that abundant life was meant to start the moment of our death. What if we’re missing it now because we don’t ask to experience it? Nothing is impossible for God (Luke 1:37, Matthew 19:26). I wonder what would happen if we believed that truth for our ‘too much’ prayers and our ‘too much’ life.
Sometimes I’m too much. In my eyes I have too much sin, too much emotion, too much debt, too much pain, the list could go on. My perspective makes it difficult to believe I won’t be too much for people. But the amazing news is, I am never too much for the God of too much. He knit me together in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13), and He did so just right. He is never put off by my big feelings, my extravagant prayers, or any of my ‘too much.’ He invites all of it poured out on His heart. His heart fully embraces it all.
He is the God of overwhelming grace, unconditional love, unfathomable mercy, far more than we ever deserve. He is our Creator, Redeemer, Emmanuel. Is all of this too much? While I fall on my knees breathing out a weak, “Yes. It’s too much,” He unabashedly lifts my head to meet His eyes saying, “No. You’re worth it. You’re worth everything. If you weren’t, I wouldn’t have done it.”
What prayers have you stopped praying because you can’t bear to hope for them anymore? What prayers capture the desires of your heart but feel too absurd to utter? What miracles have you failed to ask God for because you don’t believe He will answer? I’ve decided I don’t want to miss any inkling of a miracle on this Earth, nor do I want to miss hearing from God about my WHOLE heart, even if it means I hear Him say “No.” I’ve decided to pray the prayers that feel crazy. And, you know what? It’s not scary anymore. It feels like dreaming big with a friend. What if the enemy wants us to be afraid to speak the over-the-top prayers? He certainly knows we have an over-the-top God. Do WE know that? Let’s start praying like it! I can’t wait to see the answers.
Thank You, God. Thank You for being the God of too much.